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My physical absence is the response from the emotional and spiritual chasm that exists as an empty vacuum that this relationship has failed to fill….things have plateaued too long. So don’t let my exit come as a surprise. You expected me to be comfortable but your complacency just made me more dissatisfied, unfulfilled, and miserable with the routines.

At times I feel like an emergency case patient waiting in the operating room only to realize no surgeons or nurses are on duty….its a vacant hospital, an abandoned facility that shows no remorse; having to drag my ass back home and perform the necessary operation on myself with very little precision just to patch myself up in order to survive for a while….sigh

Like a seed planted but never watered. Waiting far too long to burst forth and grow to full potential. Instead…my planting has felt like a burial. For only dead things get buried and stay buried. Yet you will never know this because you are caught up with routines, activities, and keeping the masses pleased. The mass that has been inactive and unprofitable from before time. Yes… the truth is….I’ve left a long time ago. I have only been present physically. My Presence never confirms me being present. So it is no longer profitable nor beneficial for me keeping up pretenses and eventually getting lost in the masses. No, I refuse to. I need to be reached…the vacuum needs to be filled. Miracles can happen but in this case, it will require revelation.

Never thought this day would come but it’s here…

Like a child who has lost his parent…I shall wander, fail, be abused, scarred hoping to find a loving nurturing home….maybe I’ll just die on the journey. Either way….that’s the reality.

There are no easy fixes or 3 steps process to create an overnight turn around. For my pain transcends science. While time does not heal all wounds, your time would certainly aid in the process of healing and restoration. Yet, your distance through duties and obligations, to being busy is how you ‘cop-out’ and hide, from the responsibility you ought to contribute to our redemption. Yet I shall journey on this walk alone, for my heart seeks a safe haven to heal and to be restored. There is hope, there is still time, there is still an opportunity for these voids to be filled and this brokenness to be made whole…

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